Perhaps I Am Dying

[Russell Smith]

Student’s question in BLUE.
My Responses in BLACK.

Good afternoon Master Sherpa,

I will greet this day with love in my heart.

Yee Haw!

From the Land of Sky Blue waters, I see something new; I see my life as a single totality; I see Why I Am; my first teacher 40 years ago gave me a birthday drawing by an Eskimo artist depicting a Beluga whale harpooned by a hunter braced against a an icy outcrop struggling to beach the Beluga in order to kill it and eat it. I have this image prominently placed in my “lurkum” so I see it almost daily and mentate on it often. Now I understand why it strikes me so:

A profound image of life and death.

May the moments of your nothing continue to consume the moments of your something.

Indeed! The mystery of my life and of life in general lies unveiled. The “All and Everything” of it makes complete sense! Wow!

/bow

I patiently and impartially await my “daily bread” as I bear witness to “trogoautoegocrat”. Comments?

To sustain one’s existence and witness the intake of three foods is a rare thing, as most men can only participate in one.

I notice you refer to the Conscious Board Game “as the fifth way”. The game indeed has 5 paths to school. The Way of the Yogi is described differently by Ouspensky and in his writings the 4th Way is formulated in different ways: The Way of the Good Householder; the Way of the Sly Man; and the Way of Balanced Man. Comments?

Those are, indeed, the 4 traditional ways. I considered this school to be akin to the Fourth Way. Then, one day, a student suggested that I should call my work "the Fifth Way", because the other 4 ways didn’t work, i.e., they did not awake people… and mine did – so I now call it "The Fifth Way". 😉

My Beluga is currently experiencing much physical pain and exhaustion. Is he about to lose his battle with the hunter? Is this experience part of the journey’s scenery? My wife is concerned as I am having difficulty moving and sleeping. She has asked me to seek your counsel. Comments?

Silence in my inner world "for the space of about half an hour". –Revelations

We are all approaching the final result of being alive.

It is possible that a man, who attains the truth… and senses that he has reached the purpose of his existence, may relax to the inner struggle of the climb and then cease his tenacious need to exist.

But, damn you Sir, if that’s the case… the wife needs you. I need you. Students, who are seeking to awake, need you… So no throwing in the towel yet!

And, I forbid you to pull a Helkgematios on us.

Who, when asked, "Having become… the first to become… all that you can possibly become — and now, having, for so long, been… all that you can possibly be… what next?”

The rest, is legendary. The Great Arch Cherub Helkgematios… sat silently — appearing to be in a state of deep reflection — then, looking in the direction of the Sun Absolute and in a tone of surprised realization, he simply said, “I start over.” Afterwhich, he stood up and disappeared". –Beelzebub’s Last Wish

So, that’s out!

That leaves us with the natural terminus of the human body. So what can we do to delay the heropass? What can we do to extend the octave.

I would suggest "Higher Feedback":

"Do you (referring to the higher) know why I am sensing so much ‘physical pain and exhaustion?’" (hope for a yes… if you get one continue)

"Can you tell me why I am sensing so much ‘physical pain and exhaustion?’" (hope for a yes… if you get one continue)

"Why I am sensing so much ‘physical pain and exhaustion?’" (do Higher Feedback until you get the answer, when you do, continue)

"Do you know what the body needs to combat (the answer)?" (yes)

"Can you tell me what the body needs to to combat (the answer)?" (yes)

"What does the body need to combat (the answer)?" (do Higher Feedback until you get the solution)

Perhaps, a food, an element, a posture, a physical exercise. Find something, because your extended presence here is the Universe’s most highly requested request.

In the Conscious Board Game it is intriguing to me the role of the Kings in the “Fifth Way” and how they are developed. Remarkable. Much to learn. Comments?

You are intriguing to me. Thus, I have beseeched the Absolute to removed all the Aces from your Law Deck and to greatly lengthen your Fibonacci spiral.

Keep rolling that DIE… for, with "much to learn", you ain’t going nowhere!

Nuff Stuff,

Hugs and Kisses

Love in bushels,

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Next email from student in BLUE
His Higher Feedback in RED

Beloved,

Cancel the Code Blue.

I consulted Higher Feedback:

"Do you (referring to the higher) know why I am sensing so much ‘physical pain and exhaustion?’" (hope for a yes… if you get one continue)

Yes

"Can you tell me why I am sensing so much ‘physical pain and exhaustion?’" (hope for a yes… if you get one continue)

Yes

"Why I am sensing so much ‘physical pain and exhaustion?’" (do Higher Feedback until you get the answer, when you do, continue)

The labor was lengthy and difficult.

"Do you know what the body needs to combat (the answer)?"

Yes

"Can you tell me what the body needs to combat (the answer)?"

Yes

"What does the body need to combat (the answer)?" (do Higher Feedback until you get the solution)

Absorb “Mission accomplished.” You may leave whenever you wish. You are free to “start over”. However, should you wish otherwise, and there are many sound reasons for so wishing, get as much R and R as your body needs, stop doing the fucking exercises and listen to Russ. If you wish to see how much fun life can be, stay — Everything comes to Nothing. Besides, you have MUCH to grok and your Sherpa will be really pissed if you pull a Helkgematios before he does.

Perhaps, a food, an element, a posture, a physical exercise. Find something, because your extended presence here is the Universe’s most highly requested request.

Nix the apple fritters. Eat what the wife prepares. Giggle more. Have more sex!

Hugs and Kisses,

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